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It's Complicated: But sexy!


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[PART EIGHT]
sorry about the delay in getting this up! please put all new prompts here.

THE SOCIAL NETWORK KINK MEME


ASK THE MODS * FAQ * DISCUSSION * RESEARCH * FILL LIST * PART ONE * PART ONE (OVERFLOW) * PART TWO * PART TWO (OVERFLOW) * PART THREE * (PART THREE (OVERFLOW) * PART FOUR * PART FIVE * PART SIX * PART SEVEN


GENERAL RULES;

IMPORTANT: please DO NOT post prompts about any non-public people as part of a prompt. for example: randi zuckerberg is fine as she is a public figure both on the internet and on facebook itself. priscilla chan is NOT as she is not a public figure.

if you're in doubt, please message the mod or leave a comment in the discussion post.



♥ post requests and responses in the comments to this post.
♥ be respectful.
♥ both a pairing/character AND a prompt/kink must be posted.
♥ one pairing/prompt per comment please.
♥ you are encouraged to try and write a prompt for every request you make.
♥ we are slash, femslash, het, three-and-moresomes etc. friendly. (we are even incest friendly what with some of our characters being twins and all...)
♥ no pairing bashing, OK? no need to wank over ships.
♥ long and short fics welcome. multiple responses encouraged!
♥ please try to refrain from saying 'seconded!' as much as possible.
♥ on RPF: Please disclaim that it is RPF, a work of fiction and in no way related to the actual actors/persons/etc. (i wouldn't even try and discourage RPF from this meme ;))
WARN FOR COMMON TRIGGERS, PLEASE




FORMAT OF PROMPTS;


♥ alphabetize pairings/threesomes/moresomes. (e.g. Eduardo/Mark/Sean etc.)
♥ put [RPF] before RPF prompts. (e.g. [RPF] Andrew/Jesse)
♥ for crossover prompts: "[Crossover], The Social Network Character(s)/Other Character(s), [Fandom]" (e.g. [Crossover], Eduardo/Columbus, [Zombieland])
♥ no "!" in pairings, only in descriptions. (e.g. Eduardo/Mark, FacebookCreator!Eduardo, CFO!Mark)
♥ anyone, everyone, no one? Use "Other." (e.g. Sean/Other)
♥ put [GEN] before GEN prompts.




FILLS;


♥ please don't embed. link to images/videos.
♥ no locked material. this includes communities, even if membership is open.
♥ fills can be posted anonymously or not.
♥ fills can be anything: fic, art, vid, fanmix, podfic, etc.
♥ all prompts are open to fills at all times, even if they have been filled in the past or are being currently filled by someone else. multiple fills are positively encouraged; if something appeals to you then do not be put off creating a new fill by the existence of a prior one.
NEW: ♥ PLEASE comment with the first of your fill to the PROMPT and then all future updates as a comment to the FIRST PART of the fill. this makes it easier for both the WIP spreadhseet and for archiving stuff on delicious. it also helps people who are trying to catch up on updates and don't have to look through every fill on the prompt (should it have more than one). thank you.






[ARCHIVING]

[DELICIOUS]

[UNFILLED REQUESTS]

[FILLED REQUESTS]

[FLAT VIEW]


have fun!

THERE WILL BE UNMARKED SPOILERS. enter at your own risk! :D



PLEASE READ THE FOLLOWING;

i know you guys are enjoying this meme and i appreciate that but please can you put the SUBJECT HEADER on your prompt. you would REALLY be helping me out if you could do that. it just saves time for me when i'm trying to tag everything in delicious.

AND PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE DO NOT repost prompts from parts three, four, five or six over here again. the delicious is around for people to find prompts they may not have already seen. (prompts for parts one and two are now up for reposting.)

NEW RULE;

PLEASE TAKE NOTE OF THE 'FILL' RULES. THERE HAS BEEN A CHANGE. thank you.
Tags:

Jesse/Andrew, self-harm

(Anonymous)
When Jesse feels like he's about explode out of his skin but can't take any more of his medication without risking overdose, he hurts himself. He's not trying to kill himself, or anything. It just makes him feel better. He doesn't think there's anything wrong with doing whatever you have to do to feel okay, but when Andrew finds out and breaks down, the minimal self-harm stops helping Jesse. He has to hurt himself more to gain the same effects, and even then, he still feels guilty for making Andrew feel that way. Andrew just wants him to stop.

Battle Scars - 1/?

(Anonymous)
Um. Apparently I am filling all of the difficult prompts. Okay, then. I JUST LIKE THE ANGST GIVE ME ALL OF IT.

Disclaimer: Don't own.


Trigger warning: Self-harm, depression.

It doesn't happen often.

He knows that it could - he hears about the girls who have to wear sweaters in 100-degree heat, hears about the people with scars running up and down their arms, neat little lines. He knows it could happen so often, and he takes care to make sure that it doesn't.

It's really just - it's a rush, all right? It's something to take his mind off of the real pain. He digs (not deep, just - scratching the surface of what could be so much worse) and for a brief, shining moment, there is nothing but the mark on his wrist, the gentle stream of blood. He feels okay, then. He feels like a person. In control.

Andrew doesn't know. Andrew can't know - because if he does, if he found out - Jesse knows Andrew wouldn't see it like it is, would see it as Jesse hurting himself.

Andrew doesn't get it. Jesse doesn't blame him, or anything, but - there's such a difference between the way their minds work.

Andrew's probably never known what it's like to stare at a bottle, wanting to empty it, wanting to die.

Andrew's probably never stared at a knife and imagined twisting it just so, ending this, ending everything.

Andrew's probably never gone to sleep and hoped he wouldn't wake up.

And Jesse can't blame him for that, but this is Jesse's battle. These are his scars - battles won, not lost, because every day that he survives despite himself is a day won, is a day toward the future, when he might not need this.

(He wants and fears for that day. He knows he shouldn't be afraid - but he can't imagine a life in which he's truly happy. Is it possible for him to be happy, all of the time? To see a razor and not want to cut, to burn?)

*

It's not a normal day.

He's taken more medicine than he should, and it's not enough - he's rocking back and forth, arms clutching his knees, and it's this moment, nothing else - he's here and everywhere, and he's alive but he doesn't want to be, and he wants to take more, to make the pain stop, but he can't because he can't die, because Andrew loves him and Andrew doesn't want him to go away.

He's on the floor of the bathroom and there are flecks of vomit in his hair and the water is running, drowning out the sound of his mind, and it's without thinking that he grabs the razor, peels it away, slices into his wrist - and it's fantastic, calming, and his heart rate slows as his eyes slide shut.

He doesn't want to die; he just wants to survive.

*

Andrew finds out, later, peels back the bandage that Jesse didn't quite cover.

Andrew rocks him against his chest and whispers in his ear, "Jess, Jess, you don't have to do this," because he doesn't understand that Jesse does, that he has to in order to be all right; that this isn't something he wants to do, but something that he needs.

"Why would you do this?" he asks, and Jesse doesn't have an answer - because it's the only thing that he can do, the only way he can take control.

"Promise me you'll stop," he says finally, looking at Jesse with a tear-stained face. "This isn't healthy, Jess, please promise me you'll stop. At least try."

Jesse can't. "I'm sorry," he says, but Andrew doesn't look appeased.

He's sorry, but he can't give this up. There isn't anything wrong with it so long as he doesn't go too far.

Andrew will have to understand.

OP

(Anonymous)
I also love all of teh angst. Thank you, and I look forward to more!